tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post3667337208685049257..comments2024-03-21T03:56:28.972-06:00Comments on Jill Outside: Out of the depthsJill Homerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02983065990450931943noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-40734200632036959062021-03-03T18:47:13.418-07:002021-03-03T18:47:13.418-07:00Hi Jason. Thanks for your comment. I still read an...Hi Jason. Thanks for your comment. I still read and appreciate your Soiled Chamois blog every time you post. I tried to comment a few times recently, but it seems you had them disabled. Either way, I appreciate that you have kept it up with the beautiful photography and candid observations about your life. This helps me better understand my own mental health issues. Thank you! Jill Homerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02983065990450931943noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-41464859164212380852021-03-03T06:43:18.389-07:002021-03-03T06:43:18.389-07:00Jill,
Fight "the beige!!" F*cking horri...Jill,<br /><br />Fight "the beige!!" F*cking horrible color anyway.<br /><br />But seriously, great post, and I'm pulling for you to get to the other side of this. <br /><br />I have to admit back in the days when I was crappily racing mountain bikes, I now see I was riding from my anxiety and depression (stupid black dog) and wrongly trying to prove to myself and others that I was "worthy" because I lost the weight that people shamed me for through my early life. Then, when I had some health issues (multiple DVTs over a few years and now blood thinners for life), I gained back a lot of weight, and that brought back the anxiety and depression of my youth.<br /><br />Therapy and medicine have helped, but 2020 screwed my brain big time (and my metabolism), and once the joy of the election and holidays with my wife and son wore off, I soon found myself deep in my own version of the beige and not wanting to do ANYTHING: no walks, no rides, no nothing and I could find no point to leaving the house. And I sure as hell don't have a solution for dealing with our modern lives (as Blur once said, "Modern Life is Rubbish"). I talked with my doc, she made some adjustments, and that, along with forcing my ass into the (not quite as beautiful but way less expensive) cold of mid-Michigan, has helped a ton, and I'm starting to see the light a bit. But like your asthma, I have to beware of setbacks.; I turn 50 in a few months, I have health issues, and I rock a SERIOUS "dad bod." Epics don't happen for me these days, injuries do, and that can start my black dog cycle all over again, and I can find myself right back in winter mode, but in June. <br /><br />Keep riding, keep writing, and stay healthy. You got this.<br /><br />JasonJasonhttps://thesoiledchamois.net/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-71692123316833889432021-03-01T01:51:55.468-07:002021-03-01T01:51:55.468-07:00Apropos of nothing, here is an Arctic fox after yo...Apropos of nothing, here is an Arctic fox after your own heart....Joe in Durangohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10674553842036983922noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-84296925385507977852021-03-01T01:50:07.010-07:002021-03-01T01:50:07.010-07:00Apropos of nothing, an Arctic fox after your own h...Apropos of nothing, an Arctic fox after your own heart. https://www.treehugger.com/arctic-fox-walks-covers-ground-in-short-time-4864386Joe in Doloresnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-5567890872688799082021-02-27T09:06:01.922-07:002021-02-27T09:06:01.922-07:00Thank you for this brave post. I didn't realiz...Thank you for this brave post. I didn't realize that I had an anxiety issue until the past few years. Since it became clear to me, I manage my life in a different way - trying to realize when I am close to that edge and then designing my days to try to pull back from the edge. It's been a learning experience. I hope that you are starting to feel better. It is so hard. I've never had a true panic attack but I've come close. It feels scary, and I really felt for you as I read your vivid description.KBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16885661679762446456noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-80907464445609797462021-02-23T20:22:52.306-07:002021-02-23T20:22:52.306-07:00A very brave and kind post. Brave to share one'...A very brave and kind post. Brave to share one's challenges in such an honest way. Kind as it's helpful to others, like myself, who also battle with anxiety. It's a battle with self in so many ways. I really appreciate you sharing this. I wish I had answers as to how to resolve or calm anxiety. I've done a good amount of research and spoken with my physicians only to learn that there's so much no one really knows. Thank you so much for sharing. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17991039861155877812noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-45193745492762296472021-02-23T00:47:30.064-07:002021-02-23T00:47:30.064-07:00Hi Jill.
I've read your blog since 2016 and I...Hi Jill.<br /><br />I've read your blog since 2016 and I've noticed that fear of summer fires seems to be causing you more anxiety than usual this year, even months in advance. I wonder if your jobs would make it possible for you and Beat to relocate during the summer months to a non fire state, perhaps Alaska? Dreading a season year after year is really going to drag at your mental health long term.Maldivitishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08749916358138289480noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-14875897895974450192021-02-22T11:28:40.527-07:002021-02-22T11:28:40.527-07:00I think we've all been feeling inexplicably an...I think we've all been feeling inexplicably anxious this past year. I've been a happy person most of my life but this year has really been taxing, even though nothing specifically bad has happened. But I find myself falling into darkness for no reason. Biking at least has helped me. Best wishes in dealing with your anxieties. Luckily, the stigma around mental issues is falling away, and it's good to talk about it.Tonya Snoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-46231476398440942652021-02-20T20:27:52.099-07:002021-02-20T20:27:52.099-07:00Anxiety is so hard. Wishing you peace. ❤️
Anxiety is so hard. Wishing you peace. ❤️ <br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-70928717889294347432021-02-20T16:49:30.479-07:002021-02-20T16:49:30.479-07:00I so very much appreciate your raw and honest word...I so very much appreciate your raw and honest words. Give yourself some grace Jill. There might be an imbalance in your meds/thyroid and once you see the doc you’ll know more. This has been a flipping tough year for everyone and that includes you. This time of year in the past you were packing up & preparing for the ITI & that’s not happening for you right now. Your dreams and life have been put on major pause for an entire year not just because of the pandemic but also the wildfires. You have done your absolute best and you amaze me how you seem to still make adventure happen but still ...!!! It’s been damn tough. <br /><br />I have personally landed myself in the ER a few times because of panic attacks but I definitely didn’t know that’s what they were called. I was taken by stretcher off the top of a mountain because of a “heart event” which it wasn’t because the next day the cardiologist at the Aspen hospital said... “anxiety”. Anyway, you are absolutely not alone. <br /><br />Sending you my very best friend (that I have never met). Keep getting out there and keep pulling up those boot straps when you can because there is light at the end of the tunnel. And remember you ARE ABSOLUTELY THE BRAVEST & STRONGEST. <br /><br />(Signing here cause I’m writing this on my new iPad and it could end up showing anonymous)<br />Linda Drish<br /><br />PS give yourself graceLinda Drishhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07042567936788230572noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-5012051601908010792021-02-20T16:04:06.558-07:002021-02-20T16:04:06.558-07:00Thanks for sharing, it's very vulnerable. Anx...Thanks for sharing, it's very vulnerable. Anxiety is a beast for sure and so different for everyone but yet the same. Good luck on your journey. It flares for me at times its unbearable.Careynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-92075556710829868972021-02-20T14:34:08.275-07:002021-02-20T14:34:08.275-07:00I just saw that my post listed as "unknown&qu...I just saw that my post listed as "unknown". I don't post on these things very often. It's your Alaskan friend, Craig. <br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04622076113621639859noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-11247730285265154052021-02-20T14:32:54.883-07:002021-02-20T14:32:54.883-07:00Thanks you so much for that post, Jill! I've h...Thanks you so much for that post, Jill! I've had weeks at a time of "on edge" and can't feel happiness for no discernible reason and it sucks. Posts like this help others get a little perspective. To not feel as overwhelmed when they hit a rough patch. Also, I love the sea monster metaphor. It's kind of grim, but I find embracing the grimness helps me get through it quicker. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04622076113621639859noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-17791032262930419522021-02-20T13:02:55.185-07:002021-02-20T13:02:55.185-07:00So I have been working on regulating my thyroid le...So I have been working on regulating my thyroid levels..the amount of meds I've taken for years no longer worked. I was at the top end of the range. Switched to a higher dose and had some of the same symptoms you mention..no panic attacks but really irritable, anxious, etc. I called it my tweaker phase. I'm testing out another dose and feel marginally better. Worth a try.Maryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11166776565191771729noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-65312947380634043102021-02-20T07:37:12.403-07:002021-02-20T07:37:12.403-07:00A Brave and Strong post...A Brave and Strong post...Box Canyon Blog.comhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07032055509766739436noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-18646246384919926372021-02-20T05:56:28.177-07:002021-02-20T05:56:28.177-07:00Thanks for sharing. Anxiety is a diverse beast. ...Thanks for sharing. Anxiety is a diverse beast. I too suffer from it but in different ways. I'm not saying medication is the ticket as it's not for everyone. That being said Sertraline (Zoloft) has been amazing for me. I've weened myself off a couple times to only fall back into the state of anxiety that consumes me. I didn't want to be on medication for any long period of time but here I am.<br /><br />Again, thanks for sharing. I feel the more people talk about it the more others that suffer realize they aren't alone. Benhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17445571969047082055noreply@blogger.com