tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post6525608663345153847..comments2024-03-21T03:56:28.972-06:00Comments on Jill Outside: This heart of mine is just some broke machineJill Homerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02983065990450931943noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-64699166992485264872015-07-27T16:48:00.586-06:002015-07-27T16:48:00.586-06:00I would've been crying, too. But every night y...I would've been crying, too. But every night you picked yourself up and went on and took care of yourself. What you accomplished, as sick as you were, is just impressive as hell.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05807561670387250099noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-1744014093037702962015-07-27T01:07:29.127-06:002015-07-27T01:07:29.127-06:00I doubt they heard me. I didn't say anything, ...I doubt they heard me. I didn't say anything, as there wasn't anywhere for them to get over, and were moving so slowly that I knew I could pass them as soon as there was space. So they weren't being jerks. Just unbelievably slow. Which I suppose is better than rude and fast. <br /><br />I don't want to give the impression that I was hating the race (although I do strongly dislike the rail trail, even when healthy.) These nightly low points became my way of venting a lot of frustration, because I actually love the race/route and wanted badly for it to work out. One of the main reasons I participate in these types of endeavors is the experiment with and test mental strength. And what TD 2015 taught me is that the physical aspect still draws a hard line. Jill Homerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02983065990450931943noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-45786376157006651332015-07-26T19:24:48.097-06:002015-07-26T19:24:48.097-06:00Your comment about how despite how you felt you we...Your comment about how despite how you felt you were actually having a pretty good race...so true! I had a couple of FB acquaintances at this year's Tour Divide as well, guys who I know to be strong cyclists who'd put in serious training, and I believe you were ahead of both of them until you had to drop. It was almost disorienting to know how terrible you were feeling and then track you all on the leaderboard and see the kind of progress you were making, proof that no matter the modest game you talk (which I'd guess is basically a testament to the people you're comparing yourself to) you're a tough, strong athlete.<br /><br />And I had to laugh at your grumpiness because that's SO familiar.Towards the end of two tough (for me) races this spring I'd get so angry, scripting what I'd say to the race director who plotted out this ridiculous route or the friend who'd talked me into racing it. Kate Geisenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11854561265520868538noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-85297229006828744222015-07-26T17:28:57.361-06:002015-07-26T17:28:57.361-06:00This comment has been removed by the author.Mikehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08323617738727693987noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-27900121809152723222015-07-26T17:28:39.924-06:002015-07-26T17:28:39.924-06:00Love hearing your story. I hit the rail trail on ...Love hearing your story. I hit the rail trail on 4th of July. Every ATV in Idaho was on the trail, and it took a while for my lungs to cough up all of that stuff -- yuck ! Mikehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08323617738727693987noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-66865953585805066952015-07-26T08:39:54.184-06:002015-07-26T08:39:54.184-06:00Oh...and the dune-buggy couple...why didn't th...Oh...and the dune-buggy couple...why didn't they let you pass? What kind of A$#%les are they? I'm from Montana and I'm embarrassed....(but one fact of life: there are jerks EVERYWHERE! And you get in front of one, there are 2 more just up the road to further annoy you).Matthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10517087265569164625noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18615538.post-73307196786987974902015-07-26T08:37:41.180-06:002015-07-26T08:37:41.180-06:00Wow...just wow. I can't fathom doing this. And...Wow...just wow. I can't fathom doing this. And your pictures are FANTASTIC! I can't believe that during all this hell you think to stop and take pictures! Those wetland shots are unbelievable! It's very hard to imagine how you are able to SO hate the race that you have a bawling fit every night, yet every morning get back on your bike...I'd have kicked my bike "to the curb" on day 2, or at most day 3 and walked to a bus and gone home (I'm SUCH a wuss!) It takes a quite special mentality to be able to do these types of races...the physical aspect is only a small part...I think the mental part is key...how you don't quit is beyond me. <br /><br />LOVING this story, I'm only sad as we all know the ending and can see it coming as your health declines. Thanks SO MUCH for bringing us along for the sufferfest!Matthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10517087265569164625noreply@blogger.com